Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Another Week

It's been over a week. He's had the letter for at least a week. No letter. No e-mail. No phone call. A week.

What could he be thinking? It's not just the feeling of rejection. But if a person who provided half of my genetic code could be this insensitive, what does that say about me? Is he scared? Does he not know what to say? Is he just procrastinating? Does he not believe me? Does he want nothing to do with me? Why is he just sitting on this? Shouldn't he be anxious to get in touch with me?

I know it isn't personal. But it is, you know? How can it not be? The man who sired me isn't responding at all to my overtures. I put myself out there and find only silence.

This sucks.

2 comments:

Lori A said...

Oohhh, I can understand how it would feel like a life time when your waiting for a response. I hope he just needs some time to let it all sink in. This is huge on the other end too. Be patient. I know it's hard, but what else can you do. Maybe he's writing a letter right now and is just having trouble finding the words. It's not an easy thing to do as you know. Good Luck.
Lori A

Mary said...

((((((((((phil)))))))))) it sucks!