I was thinking about my "Curiosity" post from a few days ago. I really don't know what being an adoptee is like.
I mean, I know what it's like to be me.
But growing up, I didn't know anyone else who was an adoptee. (Or, if I knew someone, I didn't know that they were an adoptee.) So I never talked to another adoptee about what their experiences were like. So I don't know what about my experiences are unique to me, and what are common to other adoptees.
I have since met many wonderful adoptees on-line, and I have had some reassurance that my experiences aren't all due to something weird about me.
However, I still feel some uncertainty about my own views about adoption. I still feel isolated from others around me. They aren't adopted. And I don't feel certain about my own views of my experiences. Did adoption do this (whatever "this" is) to me? Or is something peculiar about my own psychology?
I think this is one of the real harms of adoption (one I hope has improved since my time): by encouraging adoptive parents not to talk about adoption, by keeping the secrets, adoptees don't talk about what's going on. And they don't talk to other adoptees. So they wind up feeling all alone.
Of course, I don't know if that's just my experience or not. *sigh*